I've been playing those words in my mind for a while.
I need another one of him.
Did those words actually travel out of her mouth?
I need another one of him.
Some reference on this: my old principal is interviewing people for my position. She's interviewed several people, none to her liking. I won't go into details, but she's looking for someone particular. Someone who knows their stuff. Someone who isn't afraid to take charge and make ground level decisions on the fly. So, she utters these words:
I need another one of him.
It's an awkward feeling, knowing that your principal wants you without truly wanting YOU. She wants your qualities, skills, abilities, knowledge, leadership, and dedication without the actual physical presence, feelings, emotion, and logic. Kind of like buying a new car without the engine...looks good but can't get your ass anywhere.
Two main things come to my mind whenever I play those words in my mind:
- She already had me and now I'm gone, moved on to another opportunity, never to return. Sucks for her.
- Her standards for the next person are going to be incredibly high and probably unrealistic.
As for the person she will hire, I hope they exceed her expectations and succeed. When I first got the job, I told her "I want to eventually leave with the situation much better than I got it". So, when the next person entered into the situation, they would not have to stress as much to get things working. I want them to exceed and excel, and to build upon the work that I put in. Also, I wanted my work to be so solid, that the next person would either have to be negligent or incredibly incompetent to foul it up. Programs and systems are supposed to support the kids, and the one I set up directly helped the children. So, in theory, the next person can come in, read over the finely detailed manual I set up, and hit the ground running. In theory.
However, it's a uncomfortable feeling that your previous leader liked your work, but didn't like you as a person. It led me to two thoughts: our personalities never meshed, or she never valued me as an individual. In earlier posts, I detailed her leadership qualities, or lack thereof. So, it would stand to reason that she wouldn't value me or anyone else that had a strong personality. Quality leadership values the quality work everyone does, not just the ones you like or work well with. At times, I was an insufferable asshole; I chewed out 8th graders who refused to listen to their teachers, stood my ground in staff meetings, and said "no" a lot to demands from teachers and parents who wanted their way, but their wishes would harm my program or my student's learning opportunities. I was all the bad names they muttered under their breath: asshole, dickhead, ignorant jerk, stubborn ass. But, many of the teachers (and a smaller number of parents) valued my work because I did it so well. Hell, there were some incredibly aggravating teachers at the school I worked at, but I valued their work and their efforts because they did it so damn well. We all had strong personalities, but we knew to appreciate and cherish everyone's work, because it is so difficult and tiring. Game respects game.
I need another one of him.
I hope she keeps looking, finds someone that will keep setting the standard of excellence, and she values them better than she did me.
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