Thursday, August 18, 2011

Mistakes

In life, you will inevitably make mistakes. Some will be small (forgetting to pick up milk on the way home), and some will be large (neglecting to pay your taxes...for 15 years). More often than not, people will see past your mistakes and see that you are human. Sad thing is, there will be situations where the good you do will be overshadowed by a mistake.

I kinda sorta knew the school district's police chief. He worked in Oakland in some of the roughest neighborhoods. He worked in a drug interdiction task force for the state. He tried to revamp the school security officer hiring, training, and supervision protocols. He worked with communities to help kids get to school safely every day. He raised funds to run summer programs...with cops as youth leaders. Cops can have fun with neighborhood kids? All in all, he was working in good faith to help kids. He wanted kids to be safe in school, to learn, and to be successful in their lives. He also wanted us staff to know that our efforts were appreciated and he cared about OUR safety. Nobody had a bad word to say about him, and the people I knew had a lot of respect for his work. That was, until he made a mistake...

Let's say, you get the chance to play some golf on the job. Yeah, it's with your boss, but it's still golf when you should be in the office (or patrolling a beat, but that's neither here nor there). It's for a fundraiser, so it's even better. By the 12th hole, you and he have enjoyed a couple of Miller Lite's, and you're having fun. However, on the 13th hole, you realized your boss has had a little too much of the devil water, and he starts popping off at the mouth. He's just competitive when he's had a few. No big deal. So, on the 14th tee, he really get's going with the f-bombs and borderline racist comments. Why is he getting drunk at the golf course? It's Tuesday, and we're still on duty. Around the 17th hole, he's pissed at...something. It might be at you, or the fact that you're a Black sergeant on the force. Doesn't matter, but imbibing spirits is not a good thing for him. An in a few minutes, you're gonna realize it's not good for you either.

You do the responsible thing...call a friend for a ride. Wouldn't look good if the drunk police chief got into a car wreck...on duty...on a Tuesday. As you're riding home, dude starts really letting you have it. He starts using the phrase "you people". He starts popping off about whether you should live in your neighborhood. Dude, that OT you gave me bought me that house in the nice neighborhood. It's really your fault I'm living like a boss. Throw in a couple of N-words he's shelling out , and you are wondering if this guy is really drunk or this is what he thinks off the clock (oh shit, we're still on the clock!). Your designated driver stops somewhere, probably at his house to let his family know what's going on...drunk chief gets out, throws some N-bombs towards the designated driver's children, then proceeds to have another driver take him home. This new driver is Asian...his ride is just as bad, if not worse.

This is a pretty big mistake. This is one that will overshadow all the hard work and efforts he put in. It's a small mistake if you get drunk and send a stupid text to an ex-girlfriend. It's a huge mistake if you get drunk and try to prove that America isn't "post-racial".

Sidenote: stop using the phrase post-racial. Racism is still alive in America...admit it. If you don't believe me, then look at our district's dropout rates. Almost 50% of our black and brown students don't make it out of high school. And, we as a nation don't see that as a problem, even though we need these students to go to college, get great high-paying jobs and stimulate the economy. Instead of feeling good about voting for a brown president, let's work to make sure these kids have a fighting chance to be successful. Also, let's not celebrate "heritage months". Let's incorporate people's history in every subject, every day. Ida B. Wells, Fred Korematsu and Cesar Chavez didn't do their work on specific months, and we shouldn't celebrate them on just a specific month.

Sad thing is, this dude was a good guy. I just hope that we, as a community and as working members of the district, have an understanding that this was a mistake. Was it indicative of the kind of person he is? I don't know, but I hope he gains his sobriety, makes amends to his family, and truly takes to heart the pain and hurt his words caused. I hope he can look into the mirror, truly find out about who he really is, and forgive himself so he can live the rest of his life without shame, but with understanding of who he is and about the past he has experienced.

If he doesn't do that, then it will be the biggest mistake of all.

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